My Immortal...♫

This is a meaningful song with all the meaningful words which fits my feeling & awaken the devastating experience in my heart...I'm inconsolable...


{I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along...♫}

缘分．．．

缘是天定，分是人为．．．还是，有缘无分到头来一场空呢？
我时常说：看缘分吧！一切顺其自然．．．
可是，幸福不是要自己争取的吗．．？
那天参加了朋友的婚礼，当她伴娘．．．原来结婚不是一件容易的事．既要按照俗例，又要安排周全．．
看见他们情意绵绵，真令人羡慕．．他们的浓情蜜意，完美的邂逅．．有如童话故事般里永恒的爱．．．
可为什么有人许下了盟誓，到最后也是离婚收场呢．．？
我一直都很向往我以后的婚礼会是怎样的．．可是经历了那么多事情．．．不禁感叹．．．唉．．．
一个人全心全意去爱另一个人，是一件很美丽的事情．．．但如果发现自己爱的那个人在骗自己，整件事就会变得很丑陋了．．．
切记:[回头百年身，珍惜眼前人]...

是否有一首歌...

是否有一首歌让你刻骨铭心呢？
对我来说每一首我知道的歌都代表着一些过去和回忆...只是有一些歌让我更深刻的印在心中．．．
有些歌让我听了深感幸福．．．
有些歌让我听了心情高昂．．．
有些歌让我听了泪流成河．．．
也有些歌让我听了心痛不已．．而这些歌往往让我没勇气去听．．．因为那每一字每一句配合着旋律会把我的心支离破碎．．．
我曾经以为都过去的事．．就不会再影响我的情绪．．．可是．．．当音乐响起时回忆就像影带的重播在脑海里．．．虽然心酸但也是值得回忆的吧．．因为这是我成长的一部分．．即使再不想去想．．．它也是一个让我变得坚强的理由吧．．．
》．《 加油！！

守护甜心~

刚刚看了【泡沫之夏】的完结篇。。。太感人了。。 两位男主角最后明白了占有未必可以幸福，只要把爱深深烙印在心中，心就会满满的。。。只要对方开心与幸福就满足了。。欧辰对夏沫的好，在这现实生活里能找到吗？令我太感动了。。。
最近迷上动漫卡通了！里面的人物太可爱了～也许真的不该沉迷于太多虚拟爱情片。。。太投入会影响情绪。。看了好几部动漫，很想介绍的是【守护甜心】！细说着每个人心中有颗蛋。。洁白纯真的蛋，代表着个人的内心世界。。如果内心因为外来因素而破坏了，蛋就会被划上X叉！就像天使与恶魔。。。（很像psychology的id，ego，superego 和unconscious mind）哈哈。。亚梦是女主角，“我的心unlock！”变身！负责净化那些坏蛋。。她拥有三个守护甜心，太可爱了！多想拥有一个啊～
かわいい~♥

爱上了雨天...

那场雨淋得我够彻底的...也是我想要的...
带着我的脚踏车在雨中漫步,这感觉真特别...
雨水滴答滴答的打在我头上,脸上,及身上,伴随着凉风阵阵的清风...把我深锁的眉头打开了，也把我凌乱的思绪吹走了...雨下得越大,我的心就越平静...我真的爱上了雨天...
大雨像花洒般淋湿了全身...也淋湿了我的心...这对我来说就像是户外洗澡,只不过不同于室内的是,多了风景欣赏与一份落寞感...
我是一个人...也习惯了一个人...可并不寂寞,只是孤单了...多么希望有个人会撑把伞出现在我面前,为我遮风挡雨,为我取暖...为我赶走心中的畏寒...
原来...我累了...我想靠...靠在坚厚的肩膀上歇歇...真的很想...可以吗? 就让我暂时靠在雨水中吧...
原来...雨水和泪水可以融合在一起的...怎么我现在才懂这个道理呢? 那...就让我用雨水掩饰我的泪水吧...
原来...在雨天看到的风景是额外不同的...那迷糊中的清新,显得悲切却带着一丝优美...我现在才发现到...
原来...我真的爱上了雨天...♥

Lost control

What's wrong with me today...not only today, is recently...I realized my EQ is getting low. easily get aroused. What's wrong...=(
I dun like to show my emotion to ppl...but i did recently...my mom jus cal to ask smt..but jus now I was so impatient when i talk to her...i know i shd not be like this. i shd jus calm down...but i...
Is it becuz of movies that affecting my emotion? or i hv changed? changed to a person that cant control well of herself?? i dun like me being in this way...=(
I feel like crying like the weather now...='(
I feel like running out and cry under the rain...so that no ones will notice i am crying...pls rain heavily as never...let the rain calm me down...pls...

If...

"If i can go back to las time i will..."
"If i can...if i can...if i can..." everything comes wif the If...
wat is the point saying IF, if we cant fulfill the "if"...sigh..
If i am given a chance to use "if" wat will i wish for?
Go back to las time? do this? do that? i wonder...
I don't think i will want "if" cuz it makes me feel imperfect..
If only IF exists...

How to calculate LOVE?

Love is 1+1=2? or it's L.O.V.E=4?
No...i cant calculate it cuz the maths in love is too complicated to understand...
Love has four alphabets but it is not the number of letter words...it cannot applies any formula to calculate it...

And What is LOVE?
Maybe u can get the answer from google, but is that wat Love means?

If there is a choice between science and art to indicate LOVE...i rather choose art..cuz ter isn't a definate answer and explanation for it.
Love cannot be explained in a scientific method accurately, but somehow ppl use to interpret it in different ways and apply different theories on tat...
Love is not concrete which u can hold it in hands, it's something abstract which includes imagination & hallucination maybe...
Love has no taste...but somehow ppl taste it wif all senses...

Love becomes meaningless if u din't experience it urself...
Love is happiness
Love is blissful
Love is exciting
Love is hurtful
Love is miserable
Love is fragile
Love is sweet & sour
Love is..............Love.
Different ppl perceive love in different ways...how bout urs?

Well...if i mus use an equal sign to pair wif Love...
I will say...Love = ♥

泡沫之夏～

泡沫之夏～【你是我的。。。】
一部漫画改编的爱情偶像剧。。。你看了吗？

爱情剧可说是我生活里的一部分，也许是缺乏爱的缘故吧。。这些浪漫却不真实的故事总让人投入在虚拟的幻想世界里。。即使知道是虚幻的，可却偏偏情不自禁的陷入其中。。常想：“多么希望自己是那女主角啊。。” （因为这些偶像剧里的人物无论是样貌或条件都被朔造得太完美了）而我正着迷于这部爱情片。。。
可我相信我们每个人都是自己那部戏里的主角，只是故事情节就靠我们自己去指导与发挥了。。。

泡沫之夏里常出现的一句：【妳是我的。。。】 霸道既深情，仅仅四个字却可以甜入骨里的一句。。
真想听听如果有某人对我说这四个字会是怎样的感觉呢。。。我相信会比那“三个字”来的好吧。。。

等待下一集
再续♥

It'z Me in Kampar

Is another hot sunday...room like an oven. Dunno where to go so i stay in my washroom...open the shower n tap water, indulge myself in the "warm" water...suddenly rain drops falling from the sky. It's raining...walked out fr the bathroom, feel so tired so i lied on my bed...forgotten to change n i fall asleep in a rainy day...
This is my life in kampar plus the extremely hot uncle sunny. Oh! & my bicycle...^^ can u imagine i cycle to uni? well lotsa student here cycle. but my frenz think tat this is so unbelievable when i told them i act cycle & b a nerd here...lolx.
Life in kampar is simple & slow. A day is like a week sometimes...wake up early morning cycle to uni, i can c a beautiful blue sky wif white cloud like lotsa sheep up ter...campus is big so i walked a lotssssss in the uni...from block A til block I. my legs muscle pain...>.<
Go to class, Eat, Sleep...& the only Tesco to buy some food. & for the 1st time i went to ipoh jusco...i feel so happy i get to shop a lil & enjoy my mcd ice cream. =p There is nth much here. Therefore, i can listen to my heart beats sometimes, get a peace of mind as well...yes i hv changed, i can see that. only some physical daily routine i m describing, for the mentally side...to be continue♥ (some pic of the view in utar, can c the lake wherever u r...& a pic m happily shooping n eating ice cream at ipoh =p)

It'z Frenz...

This is a pic taken from last year on my bigbig day. I miss u guys a lot a lot... ...miss the moments we spend together, miss the moments we rush assignments together, miss the moments we nervous for the exam together...I feel grateful tat along the journey i have u all...i wish all of you doin great in ur own path...♥ my L4 ♥ (& those tat is not in the pic as well)

It'z Me...

Since when i started to blog??? since i move to Kampar...this is the place that choosen by me, a place that i would wana change my lifestyle & everything if possible...
This is a story of a girl...it begins from here...it may be only part of her or whole. but one thing for sure this is from her true heart...♥
I will not start from the beginning till the end...but the things tat is in her mind at the moment and things she feels like sharing...

Nikki is waiting for her one and only ♥

Since when i started to self disclose so much??? since the day i... ...